A friend of mine who is a big high school basketball coach once told me that "the best that you happen in a game can have is that the other team worse shooter make his first shot-very similar to the confidence you feel with a
gambling addiction. They will think they are a good shot upshots throwing and keeping them missing. But they keep shooting because they first made. " This same attitude I have addicted to gambling.
The idea that what once, by sheer luck happened, did keep going on and I could control it. Instead of walking away and is content with a little luck, I stuck around long enough to prove his statement true, not for basketball, but gambling.
I've been in which resulted in my
gambling addiction that the same way that people in getting gambling. My friends and I would play cards when we were in high school for a few dollars. The feeling of winning, even when was a rush. That feels better than a drug. Other people can get this feeling through exercise, the runner from high, or closing a big deal at work.
The difference between their feeling and one that i got was the high, or a sense of accomplishment. The difference between myself and friends, I play cards for entertainment and fun. They may have had that same feeling, but they don't let the feeling get their thoughts and way of life. Like most people, realized they were if they won, lucky. There is certainly a tactic, but in gambling, it is better to be lucky than good.
I've been gambling, with a
gambling addiction, and go to Casinos since I was eighteen years old. Back then, only you had to be 18 to gamble in casinos. Back then I would take the money I got from working around the House or a part-time job and I would head down to the casino on Friday night after school. What I won or lost would dictate how the whole next week would go until I receive the payment. If I won, next week was fun.
Most of the time, although I'm scrambling for extra work for money or borrow from friends. I wish I could look back and laugh and say man I was just young and stupid. the problem is it got a whole lot worse and thinking does not change. Feast or famine was the way I lived my life.
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I gambled in my early twenties (didn't realize I had a gambling addiction) and early thirties with some big problems. I should win a little here and there, but I never had a big payday. Than two years ago I walked into the casino with forty dollars and ran with five hundred thousand. The following ten months were the most self-destructive ten months of my life.
The bigger problem was at this time how many people I lied, debt, and would not listen to. At the end I lost a ridiculous amount of money; But what was worse, I lost the confidence of everyone in my life. Some have started to forgive me, but others never will. I would not blame them. I still have no confidence itself.
After that first big "payday" I gambled more in the next ten months than I ever had done before. I'd estimate I two hundred and seventy of the three hundred days gambled that all this took place. The only reason I took that other 30 days I was flat broke-classic gambling addiction ...
During this portion of the time, I won a lot of money. The problem was, among many problems, I'm never satisfied with what I was fortunate enough to win. Five hundred if I won, I would try to win a thousand losses. I had Friday nights where I would win eight thousand dollars. By Sunday, when I would leave, it was all gone. It didn't matter how much I would forward, both in the end, the casinos and I knew that I walked away.
The last few months I was so bad that I would not even the rush, or high, of winning. I knew that I wanted to eventually lose. It stopped being fun and a game, it was my life.
I wish I could say the Money losses was the worse part of my gambling addiction. But everything that was much worse. See during this time that I borrowed money from friends, family members, and others promise them that I would not use it for gambling. I had no plans of it when I borrowed money, but in the end, I lost it all.
For the last eight months I tried to rebuild confidence with these people. Some have begun to forgive me and take what I say as truth. Others have not and I think never will. I expect them to be? No. I hope to recover some confidence back with them. Another that came out of all this was the outlook that no matter what I did
I was going to lose anyway. It is a feeling of "I have no control over the events of my life, because at some point I would get screwed over. I had with someone contact was an analysis of why were they talk or act the way they were with me. I have bad enough where I even thought that family and close friends tried to "buzz me", or one on me win. I thought everyone had an angle. If they were friendly, there had to be a scrupulous reason.
There had to be a anterior motif. It was as if I lived my life's true that everything in the casino.
See in the casinos, the more you win, the more you get. Free drinks, food and gift vouchers are the norm when you're the highest bidder. Why? Because when you get this, you're going to stay in the casino long enough for them to win their money back and then some.
So when I spent most of my life during this time in the casinos, I use for that lifestyle. In the end, I made everybody upset and myself in a position where nobody would or could believe me or would like to help me.
Gambling addiction is something that I use for the rest of my life living will. It is not something that you only have one day that I am healed, can say because it is one of you forever with life Airconditioning. I have to stop myself from this path of destruction continued, not take steps that I wanted, but if I didn't I would either dead or in prison.
This is the part that is sad; It took others to me taking some of these steps. It is because of family and friends that I am starting on the road to my problem under control. Sometimes they had to do what they knew would disrupt me. Sometimes I would not understand, but in the end would be better for me. That is what it takes to help someone out with a problem like this.
When you are the person with the problem, you either don't see you have a problem, or in my case, realize there is a problem but are not strong enough to fix it without help from others. There are many people that I got angry at and thought that they were not on my side. But in the end, was the only one I can blame for me.
Gambling addiction is something people are never about, but with family, friends, support groups, literature, and most importantly, a willingness to help, they can have a life where there is some stability.
Scott Farmer
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